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Best Poems From
CHAOTIC LIFE AKA CURLY MER
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cant believe it..is this love?
He calls me 'lil mama' 'ma' 'sweetheart' and 'baby'
And when i ask him why he calls me such names
he simply replies 'I just feel like calling you that'
he says he cares about me
he says he liked in 6th grade
he even asked me out
and when i rejected him he said
' i want u 2 b the butter 2 ma bread, , , , , the sugar in ma tea, , , , , , mi feelings are 2 much 4 u i cant name em all'
Can you believe this?
Can this be love that he feels?
I mean..i dont even like the guy..i even made fun of him in 6th grade
and now..he's back trying to win my heart
I dont know..Ive never had someone say that to me before..
It was deep and sounded soo real..
He must had been flushed when i told him no..
I guessing that's why he's not talking to me anymore.
I guess I broke his heart.
But what am I suppose to do? Say yes just to make him happy when i really dont want to? I'm not even allowed to date.
Seriously, what should i do?
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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Chronic Headaches
How is that every time I think about the past
I think get those painful headaches?
Whenever I replay that conversation in my head and analyze it, my head starts to boil, my eyes turn bright pink and suddenly feel cold and guilty.
It's also kinda strange how these headaches becomes worst and really heavy when I think of all those stupid times when i tried to be honest to someone who really don't care and regret it.
It's like someone took a knife or bullet and aimed at the center of my head
Leaving me brain dead.
Cant help but feeling like my skull and brain has been shattered into BILLIONS of pieces.
Like I am some kinda volcano ready to explode and burst out everything that I held inside.
It's really painful, I'm telling you.
I don't think anyone can feel worser than I do right now.
And I hate it.
Jan 3 09
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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Crying
Crying morning, afternoon, nights
Crying inside out
Crying until my tears runs out
Crying for freedom signs
All those times that Ive been crying,
I realized something really stupid
Crying does not change anything
Its just tears that Im wasting away
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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Damage (by you)
You said...actually you promise..that my heart would be safe with you
Then why is it broken now?
Why is it teared apart and shattered everywhere?
I trusted you...when you said that you'll keep my heart safe
I placed it next to your heart and you promised to not break it
and I promised not to break yours..
But you did
Can't find any reasons why someone would ever do that
Promise something at first then end up breaking it and destroy it..
I won't blame you,
I know no ones perfect
I'm not perfect...I know I'm not
I've done/said many hurtful things to you...
And even though I know, you know, that I never meant to say it
You forgave
So..even though my heart is damage by you
I, somehow, still love you with all my (shattered) heart
even though... I can't find a way to tell you..
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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