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Best Poems From
CHAOTIC LIFE AKA CURLY MER
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Cry My Heart Out
I want to cry my heart out
to get rid of the memories,
the hurt and the pain..
I want to get rid of my miserable past
of anger, miseries, and sadness
I want to be able to look at someone
and honestly say that I had a good childhood..
That I was never hated by my own family
that I never tried suicide at a young age.
I want to be able to say that I was happy
and never stupid..
That I had the best father in the world
and a mother that was always there.
I want to be able to say that I was never crazy,
and that I never witness domestic violence from my parents.
That I was surrounded by love and happiness
rather than beatings and tears.
That I had someone I could trust
someone other than God.
But those are just lies.
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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Crying
Crying morning, afternoon, nights
Crying inside out
Crying until my tears runs out
Crying for freedom signs
All those times that Ive been crying,
I realized something really stupid
Crying does not change anything
Its just tears that Im wasting away
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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Deep
Can't you see the lie behind my smile?
The cry behind my laugh?
The hurt behind each word?
Can't you tell I'm unhappy?
My essence has been soaked out of me
Rage and anger are imprisoned inside my chest
All I can do is pretend that I'm alright
That's all I have control over..
Take a step in my shoes and live my nightmare
Feel the pain in my heart
Watch the things and people I love get hurt
Hear the nonstop chaos surrounding me
Taste the bitterness of my life..
We all talk of happiness,
we all talk of love
But that's just two ideal things
that we will never fully reach
Not me at least.
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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Don't Come to Me
When you're in need,
don't come to me.
When you're failing,
don't come to me.
I may be smiling,
but don't come to me.
Watch me cry,
still don't come to me.
There's nothing you can do for me
that can eradicate this hurt you placed in my heart.
My care for you has gone away
just like the pedals in a dandelion.
To find it back is a puzzle
A puzzle that I am not willing to solve.
I already gave you too much
and it obviously wasn't enough.
Yet, now you're coming back for more.
But more is what I can not offer you.
My heart will not permit.
Just let it be.
Let me be.
Don't come to me.
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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