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Best Poems From
CHAOTIC LIFE AKA CURLY MER
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*_* Don't Know
I don't know who I am anymore..
I've changed sooo much
And I'm still figuring how it all happened.
I've become very bad
My emotions..are completely lost
And I have no idea what I'm suppose, even worst, what I'm doing with my life
I just wish scientists could make a time machine
that way...I can realize where I've gone wrong
and what made me become so bad
All the people who knew me before..
are now going to look and watch me and say
'who's that girl? isn't she curly? what happened to her? '
and I'm just gonna sit there and ask the same question to myself.
I've lost myself completely
and I'm doing soo much that I can to get my self back together
But every time I try,
there's always thislittle voice in my head that tells me to do otherwise...
and now...here I am looking at myself
as some dumba** idiot who cant take control her life
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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If only you cared
If only you cared,
then maybe I wouldn't be doing this to myself.
If only anyone cared,
I wouldn't have done this to me.
Look at me, I'm a mess
Both in the inside and in the outside.
My eyes red from crying,
and heart torn from stupidity
I hate my life, I have to say.
it has no point to it.
I make mistakes..realize it..learn from it...then do it over and over again.
damn something's wrong with me.
I think my brain malfunctionin...or I'm just plain stupid
I don't know..it's one of them
but, if only you cared,
if only ANYONE cared,
I wouldn't be in this mess right now.
7/14/08
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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I hate me and everything/one else!
I am a very bad person, I admitted it
And I will forever be that way...I know it.
I hate my life, i hate me, and i hate everything and everybody else
Forget those people I ever cared about,
Forget my family, my friends.
I don't need them anymore. I hate them all.
I don't know why, but i just do
I just wish that I was never born.
I hate this life. I hate everything in it and most of all..I HATE ME
true...feeling and story
written: 07/14/08.... <- it may be my last day on this planet too.
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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=/ Feel like Imma Die...
I can't believe it.
How terribly sick I am.
Worst than ever before COMBINEd.
Every morning, blood comes out my nose
I constantly keep coughing and every time I cough
My chest burns and feels like a knife have just been shoved through it
And every time I sneeze, is another story...
My head spins and spins,
And ever since I've gotten sick
I've been wanting to kill someone or something
for no exact reason
But what makes it worst, is my siblings
They make everything worst,
my pain, my life
Especially my little sister..
Yelling, cursing, &nd aggravating me
Making me feel worst than I really do.
I swear, I felt like I was about to die
listening her talk disrespectful to me
I want to cry, I want to scream
Just to free some pain
But I can't, somehow I just can't seem to do it all at once
I yell, I get in trouble and it doesn't help...
I don't know...
It really hurts,
Never been that sick in my life..
I fell like im going to die...
='(
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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