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Best Poems From
CHAOTIC LIFE AKA CURLY MER
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Chaos
-BOOM! ! - over there
-CRASH! ! - over here
“you shut up! ” and “no you shut the hell up! ” up there
Yelling out there, and shouting in here
Nothing other than chaos over here
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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Chronic Headaches
How is that every time I think about the past
I get those painful headaches?
Whenever I replay that conversation in my head and analyze it,
my head starts to boil,
my eyes turn bright pink and suddenly feel cold and guilty.
It's also kinda strange how these headaches becomes worst and really heavy when I think of all those stupid times when I tried to be honest to someone who really does not care..
It's like someone took a knife or bullet and aimed at the center of my head
and left me brain dead.
I can't help but feel like my skull and brain has been shattered into BILLIONS of pieces.
Like I am some kinda volcano ready to explode and burst out everything that I held inside.
It's really painful, I'm telling you.
I don't think anyone can feel worse than I do right now.
And I hate it.
Jan 3 09
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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Confession (to all my people)
Sorry mommy, for disobeying you
and doing things that I know that I shouldn't have done behind your back
For all the times I've lied to you and for all the time I've brought you sadness
Sorry for talking back to you, and for yelling at you
Sorry that I sometimes call you names when I'm mad (but you don't know that)
Sorry for all the things that I didn’t name that was wrong to you
I love you mommy!
Sorry papi, for never trusting you fully
and always talking bad behind your back
Sorry for accusing you for things that I cannot explain
Sorry for blaming you for our family conditions
Sorry papi for thinking that you never really cared about me and my siblings and that you never were a good father to us
I'm sorry, I really am, for all the other things
And, I know I’ve never said this to you
But I love you, even though I never showed it to you
Sorry to all my five siblings
For all the fights and arguments we got into
Sorry for the lies I made you believe
Sorry that I let you guys down so many times
Sorry for the time I act stupid,
and sorry for the times when I don’t treat you guys fairly
A special sorry for my older sis for thinking that you’re a geek because you’re extremely smart (yes, I admitted it)
and for interrupting you when she tries to study or read
I'm also sorry for the times when I felt jealous because you get more attention than me (it’s true)
I’m sorry you guys, I love you all even in the bad times!
Sorry to all my friends
Sorry for the lies, the gossip and the times I treat you guys badly
Sorry for all the times I swear and call you guys names
Sorry that I act mean sometimes and sorry (john) for copying your work and making you get a bad grade
Sorry for the times I hurt you guys in any way
and Elliot, uh…sorry for telling you that you stink (even if you really do) in your face (I know I’m not one of your friend but I felt like I should apologize anyways)
Yes, I know, I sound pretty stupid right now,
But I’m not always the person you guys think I am, I have a good side...and a bad one
I apologize, my dear friends, for all the wrong things I’ve done toward you
Sorry to everyone else I know
My extended family, my teachers, classmates, and everyone else
For being a bad girl sometimes and breaking the rules
Sorry for the lies and the gossip
Sorry, sorry for everything else..
And finally, sorry to myself
For telling myself that I can’t make it
For thinking about negative things (like suicide and running away from home)
Sorry for the lies and the hurt I’ve done to myself
Sorry for doing things that I shouldn’t have done
Sorry, myself, sorry for all the negative things I’ve done
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This is to all my people
To all my family members
To all my friends
To everyone that I've ever known
To everyone I've ever cared and loved…
I'm sorry...
Sorry for my lies
Sorry for anything that I've done or said that brought you down
Sorry if I ever gossiped behind your backs
Sorry if I ever done something bad to you
Sorry you guys, I love you all and take care!
Oh, and sorry for all the people I prank called. Even though it was fun and funny, it was also rude and disrespectful. Sorry!
From: Curly Mer
Today, I've decided to confess for all the other times I didn't. I said sorry to everyone that I knew and everyone I know (including myself) . There is sometime in life where you just can’t hold everything in and just have to let everything out and confess. Today was my day, and I confessed. I feel much better and hopefully the day for you people to confess will come. Good Luck to all! ! =) ? ? ? ?
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Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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Fake Names
My aunt calls me ‘ti coeur’ (meaning ‘my little heart’ in Creole)
My grandma calls me ‘kelly’
My sister calls me ‘loser’
and the baby calls me ‘ee’
My uncle calls me ‘pretty’
While my cousins call me ‘honey’
My brother calls me ‘geeky’
Or sometimes ‘b-chy’
My teacher calls me ‘curly’
And my friends calls me ‘curly fries’
I find these names pretty interesting
Then you’d ever imagine
I wish they would call me by my really name instead
I simply love (some) of these fake names
But, I just gotta say,
I love my real name better than all those fake names
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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