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Best Poems From
CHAOTIC LIFE AKA CURLY MER
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I know this is all my fault
I was the one to let go of you
after you told me to never do that...
I was your world and for the longest time,
you were mines.
Then life & decisions & depression changed all of that
I was so miserable and strongly believed that If I was alone
things would be much better.
I didn't feel loved.
I underestimated my meanings in life.
In other words, I was suicidal.
& just like that,
I broke my promises...
I told you I needed a break...
That probably was the biggest mistake of my life
I look back on our old relationship
and the cute little poems we wrote for each other.
I feel like a retard. Stupid ass retard.
We had it all. Everything was going great.
But I had to mess it up...
Like I always do....
I'm trying so hard to build that trust & love we had
But I am realizing that once something is broken,
there is a fat chance that it will never be the same.
This is true for us.
I can not force you to love me again.
I can not force you to trust me again.
I had my chances & I ruined it all.
But why am I complaining?
I brought this all on myself.
I deserve this. I really do.
It's about time I learn about keeping my promises
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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All for Nothing
I guess the memories we shared meant nothing to you
The smiles and the gifts... all bullshit.
You're pulling away from me,
I can tell.
You turn away every time you see me to avoid contact.
What have I done?
I knew this would happen..
I knew I was in for disappointment.
But at least this time
I'll be a strong girl and
I'll let you go.
There's no need to fight for someone that does not want me anymore.
Thanks for teaching me another lesson.
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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Because of You
Because of what happened to me
Im not sure where my heart should go to,
Ive given it to you, but then you gave it away and left me heartbroken
And because of that reason
Im not sure if I should start a new relationship
Im not sure if I should give my heart to someone else
And then regret it
Because of that,
I rejected more than 5 guys already,
Because my heart couldnt take it
And now that Ive been asked out by a really cute guy I really like,
I had to reject him too, and do you know who I should blame?
Ill blame you...yes, you
For making me not trust my heart
and for making me do stupid things for that
Its all because of you
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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Can't Let it Go.. </3
How will I ever let go of our past?
The happy, crazy, fun past?
The ones with all the smiles and the 'lols'
With the funny &sweet nicknames
The one that always brought up our days...
Remember them?
The ones where we tell funny stories..(lmfao(?))
Remember the ones with the babies & hospitals
and the husbands and the...abusive wife?
Remember our funny/serious Momment of Truths?
The ones where we talked about the most random and stupid things?
Remember them?
The happy emails & mssgs?
and the ones that we're not too happy?
I don't why/how we ended up like this..
But I don't like it one bit anymore..
Never thought I'll say this after all I've been through
..but i miss you
Seems like everywhere I try to go,
I keep thinking of you.
</3
Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer
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