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Best Poems From
AMANDA SAVELEY
(December 29,1987)
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A Final Resolution
Spending time alone pondering
The mysteries of life and my own twisted psychology
Writing and sleeping like both are the plague
Not able to avoid that which makes me insane
Can't break the chains that bind me near
Can't hold me down if you're not here
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
In fact my dislike almost consumes my love
Erasing you from memory
You were what I lived for
The one reason I stayed
In this meaningless existance
You taught me how to have an opinion
But not how to make one
The outer shell of my strength you built
But now I see the vulnerable core exposed
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
I'd rather forget you
But you're always there...
When I look in the mirror
When I write my name
When I am sentimental
You know you are to blame
When I look in the mirror
I don't like what I see
But I will do anything anything anything
To separate you and me
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really really really
Don't care anymore
I'll throw you away like you just did to me
Pretend you aren't part of my life
Detach myself like you are made of fire
My mind is all made up
I'm doing what I can
I'm trying hard to think
But I don't understand
My head is spinning round
I don't know what to do
If I'm so happy
I've got everything to lose
And now it's always raining
You're the one to blame
I wanna hear what you
What you've got to say
But now when you open your mouth
I'll just turn and walk away
Now that it's over, you can't hurt me
Now it's all over, you can't bring me down
Amanda Saveley
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A Little Monday Night Venting
You act as if you're superior
When your ignorance makes you inferior
You've been complimented one too many times, dear
And wonder why it is no one holds you dear
You isolate yourself from all existence
Yet wonder why no one goes the distance
The world's a lot bigger than your front door
And I can't stand to listen to you anymore
Everything's taken to offense
And sometimes things just make no sense
You retaliate, go on the attack
And now you can't take those words back
I tolerate your childish game
Why can't you see, we're not the same!
But don't think you're special, or one-of-a-kind
Because sadly, one day you will find
That we're all the same, and no one is better
We live and die down to the same letter
And just because others live as they do
Doesn't mean they're aiming it at you
Learn to take a joke, and not be so uptight
Quit insulting everyone, thinking you're always right
Otherwise, you'll be alone in the end...
And that'll hit you so great, you'll no longer pretend
It'll be so empty, it's hard to ignore
And I guess I suppose that's what this poem is for
To send a shock to your system and just let you know
That nothing will ever go right unless you learn to let go
So do something more than just come along and show up
Why don't you shut up until you manage to grow up!
Amanda Saveley
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A Little Push From The Subways
*Another day is here and I am still alive
I say these words aloud, they speak form the inside
And everytime I see you
You just walk away
Still the world is turning*
Anger flows from me inside
You can no longer run or hide
And as I dial on the phone
I don't care if you're alone
*I want to hear what you, what you've got to say
I want to hear what you, what you've got to say
I want to hear what you, what you've got to say
I want to hear what you, what you've got to say*
There's nothing more that I can think of
That I could possibly utter
In the dark abyss of an empty room
I cried to you long enough
*My mind is all made up, I'm doing all I can
I'm trying hard to think, but I can't understand
Why everytime I see you
You just walk away
And still the world is turning*
Even when I needed you,
You were never there
And through it all I took the fall
And now confusion owns me
*My head is spinning round, I don't know what to do
If I'm so happy, I've got everything to lose
And everytime I see you
I can't stand to say
And now it's always raining
You're the one to blame*
But I don't blame you anymore
I don't have the energy or time
There's too much I have to give
And too much life I have to live
*Everytime I see you
You just walk away
Still the world is turning*
Before I turn away from you
Before I lock the door
Before I forget all about you
And close my heart forever more,
*I want to hear what you, what you've got to say
I want to hear what you, what you've got to say
I want to hear what you, what you've got to say
I want to hear what you, what you've got to...
Say hey hey hey*
Say goodbye.
(Lyrics in asterisks are from The Subways' 'I Want To Hear What You Have To Say'. Lyrics are not mine.)
Amanda Saveley
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A Moment of Self-Realization
I am not your scene queen,
Your emo whiner,
Child of neverending political outrage
I am not your entertainment,
Your amusement,
Something to keep you hating something other than yourself
I am not your lone wolf,
Outcast,
Underdog hero
I am not your run-of-the-mill
Everyday ordinary
Clone thing
I have no label to name me,
No boundaries to define me
No limits to restrict me
No walls for me to climb,
Nor tear down,
Nor build
Nothing to keep me from you or you from me
Or us from them, or them from us
We're blended!
You are me, I am you
Youmeyoumeyoume
Is all the same thing
We can't tell where you start and I end
And vice versa
Because our physical differences are separating
Only to the shallow-minded,
The non-thinker,
The conformist
We are all the same
And we are all to blame
You don't do drugs,
But you use hairspray
I don't run around stabbing people,
But I drive everywhere
We're constantly killing what makes life circulate
Unable to see where it all will end,
Not thinking of things in terms of consequence
We are like the hunter-gatherers,
Using up our resources,
Always thinking there will be some more
If we just move
But none of us are moving
We are all stationary
Unmoved by even the tightest of emotion
For it is all manufactured in our minds!
A product of society
That tells you how to feel and when to feel
Cry when it's time to cry
Laugh when it's time to laugh
Do it out of turn
And you revoke your license to this thing we call 'normality'
Society kills creativity.
Stabs it in its already bleeding heart
To let out the flow of unprocessed thoughts
To jar them and store them away
To be filtered and drilled back in
In the form of structure
We say that communism is wrong,
Socialism is morally obscure
But all we have is a false democracy
Subtle control posing as diplomacy
Where we don't know left from right
Right from wrong
You from me
And that's what is defined as
Conformity
But society calls it
Normal
Amanda Saveley
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