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Best Poems From
AMANDA SAVELEY
(December 29,1987)
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Is There Life After Love (After Lie) ?
Is there a life after love?
Can there be love after lies?
My entire delusion
Fed by your illusions
How could you let me believe something so?
How could I let myself...
Throw something so...precious...
Away...
Not knowing everything? !
Not knowing what you 'failed' to tell me...
For WHAT?
For WHAT? !
So I wouldn't think less of you?
I didn't lie, ya know...
I wouldn't have thought less of you knowing the truth
But now...
Knowing that SHE
not me...
Was the first,
Regardless of whether it was good or bad
As if knowing that I was a 'good lay'
would actually make me feel BETTER!
How could you let a lie like this slip past your lips
Such a monosyllabic, simple...
God, is there a Hell? This must be it...
LIE
To say I was crushed is so little a thing
And I took it with more grace than I knew how to muster
I was good in drama, you know...
I can mask my voice better than my face
Why do you think I wanted you to tell me over the phone?
To save me some SLEEP? !
Ninja, please.
To say you know me so well, and yet so little
You're not the only one who can lie, you know...
And I can't even bring myself to hate you.
Logic won't let it be so
But the moment my heart gets the upper hand...
And you had everyone fooled,
Everyone through me
Who thought you were so IDEAL
An image of perfection...
Oh, how foolish we've all been.
Who knew.
It's time to be a big girl now...
Don't cry.
I never wish for such bad things, but I don't wish you well...
Amanda Saveley
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You Can Change Your Name, but You Can't Change Your Mind
I left home
My choice, but the manner was not select
Goodbyes to friends, family, streets, buildings
All familiar...then
I changed my room,
Cut and died my hair
Switched gears, got a car, learned to drive right
Traded friends
Severed ties, making new
Gained weight,
Started college...
Nothing's the same.
And I hate it.
Amanda Saveley
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A Closed Mind is Like A Nail in Your Coffin
This world is more than dark and light
And there is more than black and white
If you don't color outside the lines
You will remain deaf, dumb, and blind
Yeah, you may be able to use your eyes
But what you see are your own lies
And you may be be able to use your ears
But you only hear what you want to hear
And you may be able to comprehend
But how can you understand when you only offend?
When you only defend your own opinion?
When everything has to fit YOUR definition?
This world we're in don't work that way
Not everyone will listen to what you got to say
So don't be stupid! Don't be shallow
Or your life will be left empty and hollow
You will be lost, sad, and alone
And won't ever really be at home
So open your eyes, ears, mind, and heart
Don't let those misconceptions tear your life apart
That births prejudice and racist ideals
At which point, no one ever feels
The need to fix this world we've broken
Our tattered hearts are only tokens
Of what is wrong with society today
So pay attention to what you say
And watch your mouth in case you offend
And speak not of what you can't comprehend
Or someone will shut your mouth for you
And all will suffer who adore you
And be left in the wake of this nonexist
All because you got somebody pissed
And I know this is like talking to a wall...
But I'd rather do this than nothing at all.
Amanda Saveley
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A Moment of Self-Realization
I am not your scene queen,
Your emo whiner,
Child of neverending political outrage
I am not your entertainment,
Your amusement,
Something to keep you hating something other than yourself
I am not your lone wolf,
Outcast,
Underdog hero
I am not your run-of-the-mill
Everyday ordinary
Clone thing
I have no label to name me,
No boundaries to define me
No limits to restrict me
No walls for me to climb,
Nor tear down,
Nor build
Nothing to keep me from you or you from me
Or us from them, or them from us
We're blended!
You are me, I am you
Youmeyoumeyoume
Is all the same thing
We can't tell where you start and I end
And vice versa
Because our physical differences are separating
Only to the shallow-minded,
The non-thinker,
The conformist
We are all the same
And we are all to blame
You don't do drugs,
But you use hairspray
I don't run around stabbing people,
But I drive everywhere
We're constantly killing what makes life circulate
Unable to see where it all will end,
Not thinking of things in terms of consequence
We are like the hunter-gatherers,
Using up our resources,
Always thinking there will be some more
If we just move
But none of us are moving
We are all stationary
Unmoved by even the tightest of emotion
For it is all manufactured in our minds!
A product of society
That tells you how to feel and when to feel
Cry when it's time to cry
Laugh when it's time to laugh
Do it out of turn
And you revoke your license to this thing we call 'normality'
Society kills creativity.
Stabs it in its already bleeding heart
To let out the flow of unprocessed thoughts
To jar them and store them away
To be filtered and drilled back in
In the form of structure
We say that communism is wrong,
Socialism is morally obscure
But all we have is a false democracy
Subtle control posing as diplomacy
Where we don't know left from right
Right from wrong
You from me
And that's what is defined as
Conformity
But society calls it
Normal
Amanda Saveley
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