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Best Poems From
AMANDA SAVELEY
(December 29,1987)
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I Tried...
All is fair in love and war
I wish I could believe
Maybe then I'd not don a shield
Instead of my heart on my sleeve
I don't know how I'll face you
Or how I'll wear your ring
How I'll plaster a smile on my face
Or force myself to sing
How does one truly live a lie
After a heart's been broken
How does one go back in time
After the words are spoken
I don't know if I'll forget
The fact is that you lied
But at least I will be satisfied
I'll die knowing that I tried
Don't you know what you did to me
Why couldn't you have just said no?
Why did you insult my integrity
By thinking I'd let you go?
You must have thought little of me
Thinking I was the same
As all the rest of the shallow girls
As if I'd ever share their shame
How does one truly live a lie
After a heart's been broken
How does one go back in time
After the words are spoken
I don't know if I'll forget
The fact is that you lied
But at least I will be satisfied
I'll die knowing that I tried
Oh all is fair in love and war
I wish with all my might
That I could believe for just a second
That it's worth to put up this fight
Don't you know what you did to me
Now that I know you lied
Ah well; I won't be the one to end it
Because I'll know I tried.
Amanda Saveley
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Invisible
In this world of idoltry
I co-exist in harmony
No one notices I'm there
As if I'm nothing but pure air
I work hard and receive none
As all my hard work is undone
I have cried out, lashed out, called out
But my voice has dried out, died out
My life is nothing but a joke
Who could care less If I should choke
On harsh cold words of rejection
I pick apart my own reflection
Out of the light
I've been pushed but I fight
Into the dark
Overruled without a remark
In this world of cold dark stone
I just exist; I'm all alone
No one knows I'm there but me
For I'm the one they do not see
Amanda Saveley
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It's You
When I was young, about four years old,
You told me you were proud of me
I guess it was just for being there and being healthy
For what can a small child really do?
Was it because I was brighter than the other kids?
Was it because I was better behaved?
Because that wasn't just me
It was you, too...
When I was young, about eight years old,
You told me you were proud of me
I guess it was for being there and being healthy
For what can a small child really do?
Was it because I got all good grades?
Was it because I cleaned my room?
Because that wasn't just me
It was you, too...
When I was young, about age thirteen
You told me you were proud of me
I guess it was for being there and being healthy
For what can a preteen really do?
Was it because I stayed out of trouble?
Was it because I was different from them?
Because that wasn't just me
It as you, too...
When I was young, about age sixteen
You told me you were proud of me
I guess it was for being there and being healthy
For what can a teen really do?
Was it because I was a safe driver?
Was it because I refrained from sex?
Because that wasn't just me
It was you, too...
When I was young, about age eighteen
You told me you were proud of me
I guess it was for being there and being healthy
For what can a young adult really do?
Was it because I graduated on time?
Was it because I didn't go out like the others?
Because that wasn't just me
It was you, too...
Now that I'm older, eleven months from twenty
You still told me you were proud of me
I guess it's for being here and being healthy
For what can someone like me really do?
Is it because I'm going to college, earning good grades?
Is it because I'm doing all the things you forgot?
Because that's not just me
It's you, too.
Amanda Saveley
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Just a very insulting, very forward, open and honest, foot-in-mouth, ******* poem for ******
You dirty little
Double-sided,
Turncoat,
Inner ugly-faced,
Backstabbing,
Waste-of-space,
Brokedown,
Beat-up,
Poor lil ol' me
LIAR
You want me to believe half of half of half
(That's an eighth there, math witless) of what you say,
As if you've never lied,
And I've never lied,
And there's a preson in America who can speak who hasn't
Lied,
Stolen,
Cheated,
Whether it be
Taxes
Tests
Diets
Dates
And oh, how you've cheated
Putting on a,
'oh, not me, I'm innocent' face
Like no one knows what you do
Well,
I know what you do
And I'll never tell
Never tell...
Anyone who can keep a secret
So I might as well mirror it back to you
See how you like to hear it in someone else's words
My words
The words you swore on God's green Earth
And your grandmother's grave
And the heads of your inevitable offspring
And your nonexistant honor
And anything you could swear on}
Hell, you just swore
And were so caught up in trying to play off your lie
That you forgot every...little...secret
I ever told you
That you could now use against me
But since you never listened,
You're kinda screwed,
Aren't you?
Amanda Saveley
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